(Screen name Jialing chant)

 Preamble

sigh life, a poem as evidence: ups and downs of light cloud of dust round the world, love curl forward loop. Only clouds and more comfortable, less wind and everything is quiet pity. Wasted years of study, such as deep, moving back and forth throughout thing. Kulenianhua no Yuanhui, and his haunting hit hard.

unprecedented I, as a teenager then the Red Guards, treatment before and after retirement, But one is more busy, no time to write. Two is the Three was not So till now, until recent years, felt that if we do not start writing until the people of our generation wiped out, that can really is, not what the

vivid memories, bitterly painful state of mind, every time I close my eyes thought that scenes of life and death, then live the life of one, everyone believes he is a loyal defender of Chairman Mao persons. But due to different views, participate in different factions, the two sides of a field that the great debate tit for tat, Fuqifanmu, edge and is the good knife possession, as mortal enemy. That both sites in order to compete, human, resources, and as hard Sisha like Deere battlefield. My family and I in the screen, often remembered me!

have a blog named courage, the tragic history of that stage, to the world for a thorough ear, as a warning to future generations is no longer stomp mistakes (sic). Believe it, the same will be deeply hurt, when the heart of each witness. May we put pen to paper to write that part of unforgettable experiences, try to make it more precise, objective and some, some of it real! Although just the thought of

! Great personality in front of them, I do not intend to make any judgments, but also gracefully without any character or cruel whips speak of smb, but not sensational, historical fiction.

But the people of our generation to do the exact opposite of the argument was raised, they think the month) throughout the country,

is based primarily on: the second half from 1966 to November 1968 before. University stopped the recruitment, recruitment must be carried out with the work of each year, and also broken. Until November 1968 (twice a year recruiting, the spring and winter soldiers, soldiers) did not resume draft. To the seventies before the enrollment of tertiary recovery. In other words, in this period of time, in addition to the central level, the rest of the province, city, county, district, commune, the country basically in the So they think that so far been set up in the Revolutionary Committee.

As this participated in the revolutionary foot large series of process and the whole, can only own one aspect of family life, faithfully to the events of this past dedication to the community, to word of warning future generations!

(a)

Hunan's main room in the home, hung with a yellow color of the father of black and white photos. Despite the vicissitudes, has passed half a century, but the picture dressed in military uniform, serious mighty father is still clearly present, which is the collection of his pictures in North Korea Korean War is the father of my childhood image of the first to know.

years old, my parents divorced, my grandmother raised me single-handedly bringing up, lost and lonely since my mother love form lasting bonds, lonely as the fate of God, along with my life.

father was with the last batch of volunteer troops withdraw from North Korea to return, and I remember the first time I saw my father, is the second grade when his father returned home from the army to visit relatives, I called Dad , he held me up and kissed and pro, and then held the high hand, and then walk into the neck and let me ride, let me feel how a father happy.

my job more than a hundred sub-class, and when the squad leader, his father and smiled, pulled out from the wallet to a new one yuan, as to encourage me. Who for the first time money, I do not know where on the right, into the bag during the day and night, to the bosom hides, two days after the body of the missing money, I sad to cry, my father said to me: lost does not matter, I can give you Well, you as a soldier of the future, good reading in school, be sure to bring honor to my father ah. This is the first time my father taught me.

together back home and my stepmother, she is the city's primary school teachers, small-year-old age than his father, fourteen years old than me, Shandong Laiyang people, parents with a child with the pass through the East, to flee from famine Northeast, and later settled in Dandong City. She spoke eloquently, Grandma's Hunan accent have a charm, far apart both mother and daughter are not able to communicate.

she smiled and asked me: I nodded. Grandma was pleased: Get along this time, I played a home so that when translated, due to the impact of voice Northeast stepmother,UGG boots clearance, and then I also use more standard Mandarin, the school held activities and exchanges must be arranged for me to speak, it is clear the teacher The intention is to promote the activities of school-speak Mandarin.

father leaving, I wear a cap specifically put on new clothes, new shoes, and gave me two yuan pocket money into the clothes pocket, I went back to school, the students are very envy me. One day I was with my classmates to do bulletin boards and class Qiong came to me: Having still gave me hands on a dime.

I went to the nearest store to buy five boxes of matches, grab a bag drawn open, the box of matches is only half installed, look at all the same, I want to go back to how this account, the teachers also felt that I buy candy to eat it, then use their own money to buy five boxes, to take one of two ways, back to school to the teacher.

next day, the math teacher asked the class to the stove and lit: Joan said: Math teacher said: No way, I just bite the bullet and advance two cents. Until the teacher was to know why, do not let me buy a match.

in my eleven years old, his father with the troops assigned to a group of retired military cadres Hanzhong, Shaanxi, arrange the units in the regional transport system, as party secretary. He returned to his hometown in Hunan, Southern received the Yangpingguan my future, I studied at the rather strong second in Dandong, one year after the stepmother do not want to leave, my father and I stayed in southern Shaanxi.

quiet with very little my father and language, it is because he was busy with work, I grew up not living together with his father's sake. I caught this young Helpless father took me to Dandong, sister and brother are of course happy, grandma is happy they let me come back to Hanzhong, my heart think so, if you could stay, and how wonderful brothers and sisters live together.

dinner one night, step-mother asked me: I immediately replied: The next day she took me and my brothers and sisters, went to Dandong, the first department store, I spent money to buy a pound of green wool three, due to cheap, substandard goods wool uneven thickness, many parts of the roll into a ball. Turn to his brother and sister to buy wool, carefully selected to buy is more than thirteen money quality product. Although I did not say anything mouth, but my heart in tears, first time I felt life's inequalities, then the sweater knit stepmother good to me, I did not wear one, until destroyed in a fire difficult. This matter, let me not go back to obscurity is produced the idea of Dandong home, trying to find a home of their own.

month later, in my repeated request, his father finally agreed with me back to the rather strong Yangpingguan.

Sichuan Road Town - Yangpingguan, location, north west of the city in Nanjing County, located in the Bashan surrounded by mountains, the site is ancient and modern transportation hub for Shu Qin and military fortifications, history are all strategies to land. Towering Jigongshan tight lean Subsequently, vast Jialing River flowing in the former. Fifty years of the Baoji-Chengdu Railway built through the mountains from here and over; the early seventies Yang Youyi here as a starting point safety rail direct well-being. There has always been to Sichuan, Shaanxi and Gansu material parting of floods, droughts and terminals, to have

Yangpingguan known as Yang An off three times, also called off the city. West to IA, the East Han Mian control, an important gateway to the north of Shu Han. Standing across the Jialing River to the northeast Yangpingguan looked, towering mountain where they stand, about one hundred meters, the Peak Ping Kuang, forceful, like a covered bucket, which is sub-Yongsan. According to legend, because the famous hero from the Three Kingdoms, Shu, who named the mountain troops. Cold weapons, commanding top of the mountain, overlooking the whole is far off, mountains houses, roads, trees panoramic view; near the river can be controlled, a great Jian twenty-three years (218) with the hero from the first Lord Liu Bei, he led the troops into Hanzhong Road by the Taurus sign Cao. Lite-five (227) with Zhuge Liang and oath-taking hero from the Northern Expedition. Shudao danger and will force more water upstream on the Jialing River along the road, whether into the Longnan, war Kei valley, here are the inevitable hero from the land. Therefore, the son camp hero from Yongsan is the place, not without basis.

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Yangpingguan as an important transport hub in southern Shaanxi, the transportation is very convenient.

October 28, 1966 On this day, the red flag flying Yangpingguan railway station platform,bailey UGG boots, a passenger train stops at stations along loudspeakers were repeatedly heard President guards, which in that era is such a big honor.

Pro on the train, the students came to see him off, I saw a classmate Yu Zhuo female students were left standing on the site, about the past hundred meters away from me, her hands dancing up and see me. Zeng Zhuo Yu is a girl who loves to help others, long quiet delicate, students like her, because she usually love tube some big deal, some people called her the I offered to meet in the past:

His mouth, tears in her eyes.

frowned and try to control myself not drooling. I did not give any reason, without looking away. Her family is She usually gives me a lot of help, but even that I have what individual students: It makes me feel very embarrassed and minds

father had just begun, particularly in support of campaign I joined the Red Guards, he came to the train station gave me, and repeatedly told me repeatedly: Before leaving the addition of fifty dollars to me.

the train has started, the students were loud shouting: Yu-mouth shouted, his hands held the high jump up and saw her eyes excited me, I did not even said that his head retracted the car, and then out of the window to see her, when I see her head buried very low, wait for them to be able to drill into the underground, I am seriously hurt her feelings for me, but I have to do.

I think of his father leaning against the car seat last month because of a few dishes and accidentally broke a bowl, the father cursed the scene, I did not go home angry for two days, is Zhuo Yu and Wan Min classmates sent me to eat. On the third day morning, my father came to school looking for me, his hand a new bag, the bag I usually like to eat with steamed walnut, and a nice notebook. , Having hurriedly left his father, his words still make me very touched. Maybe I and Zhuo

between students meant for jade, Yu Zeng Zhuo not think this time with the students broke up, I have not seen her.

at 15:00 on November 3 about Chairman Mao in Tiananmen Square, the sixth teenager received millions of Red Guards, we are in Tiananmen Square on the day and night to see the great leader Chairman Mao. Fifteen Red Guards on the square in a row, a row next to a row of surging forward. Chairman Mao's Red Guards saw the sea of people, excited not bear to leave, everyone kept shouting: Red Guards teenager who met with Chairman Mao, you have to stand eight or nine hours, the body is tired. Red Guards teenager who loves the great leader Chairman Mao, you is it? the skies and earth.

students back to school and I reported this to the good news, and actively organize the big revolution in tandem to help schools set up cannon rebel corps organizations to participate in Hanzhong region rebel Maoist Red Guards headquarters, trying to do good publicity. In that troubled era, even those Red Guards took over the My task is responsible for the daily issue of

Since the two treatment Hanzhong University system, provisional camp and Alliance, new style different point of view, often to organize some big debate, I was busy working during the day and at night I listen to their speeches, debates, every night I listen carefully and return Workers Club (headquarters) has been very late, one morning I go out and buy food, who did not know he was only thirty yuan living thieves dig the package. Did not have any money, the next day I only find Jinyue De classmates, he helped take the way I had a truck back to the Yangpingguan.

for the first time with the students broken into street All of the store owner who must within three days, those paintings are emperors, Romantic, and letters, capital, goods repair all the destruction pattern, later on these goods shall not re-rack, or rebellion by the proletariat against the Pine punished. I see these products will burn, psychological very sorry.

this year's winter, the Red Guards of Chairman Mao's call to respond, on foot big revolution in series, the students Jinyue De, Lujiu Lin, Ping Zhao Ren Changlin source of female students and fifteen other people, from the second tone Off to stroll down to revolutionary sites - Yan'an, they went on the road to call my father, asked me to join their squad on foot series, his father promised them, he agreed with me to the great revolution in series, and gave I am spending enough to the cost of the road. I took the car until it caught up with them Hanzhong, the next day after Chenggu into Yangxian territory, must be prepared to climb the Qinling mountains, and we dared to the effect, to ask a nearby farm, the local farmer told us: mountain weather is cold, Dishuichengbing, long distance must be equipped with cotton, cotton trousers, shoes and leather hat, the best drink per person before departure the next warm body. Students with much money, everyone just bought a pair of white cotton shoes and the couple of pounds.

rush early in the morning we set off, marching all the way to the Qinling Mountains of snow advancing to the Huayang night, camping in a cave, we took the quilt simply could not withstand the cold of the invasion, and then you asked ignite firewood, the fire according to the brightly lit caves. Then, we sang songs to dance, I also recited his improvised writing Zhao Ping sources such as female students, and other teams have gone, we started drinking fun, less than an hour, we are rickety, and long-Lin students can not control is excited, he even tens of dollars to bring their own thrown into the fire pile of RMB is Jinyue De agile students, won the money from the fire back.

Qinling deep forests, winter is also bright, mountain springs flow, a small river flowing crystal clear spring water, there is no trace of pollution. Us into the dense jungle, pine blocks out the sun, the canyon quiet, lazy sun put into it a little bit of sunshine, large areas of bush snowing fog after the baptism, more lush look full of life, towering trees can not hold one person, perhaps stand out, plenty of sunshine especially branches stretch, falling snow hit in the head, so I feel very lucky and have a pleasure.

Here is the hinterland of Qinling Mountains, walking in the winding rugged mountain roads, facing the cold snow, marching wilt leaf litter, and we carefully through the thorny jungle trails, and occasionally met pheasant feeding issue tweet, they do not seem to welcome us into its territory, disturb their normal life.

we follow signs to remind the signs continue to move forward during the day to finish the hundred and twenty years away, otherwise we have to camp in the wild. When we get out the last depot (depot Sishili distance between), everyone jumped up happy, hailed the victory we have achieved the first battle.

I always maintain a pleasant mood, this time on foot over the Qinling Mountains close to nature, surprises, have often committed Toutengnaore the problems along the way such as the mysterious No Toutengnaore phenomenon, when in retrospect I Qinling awe.

turn the Qinling mountains, to the Qinchuan first stop - the Red Guards Zhouzhi County reception center, where a bowl of cabbage water without any oil slick, with two traditionally cold bread, and perhaps Then the stomach is necessary, we ate with relish. And Sichuan to the foot squad than we arrived early, they skip meals around slogans. And we said: The original site of the reception they are not satisfied everywhere, labeled

rest in Xi'an a few days on, all of us to souvenirs, until now I have been treasure. Although we still want to walk, but had to keep going, after Gao Ling Fu Ping went down in the reception stopped, and weeks of living here is no different, we also put up a poster,

reception center a rule, each of the Red Guards could borrow five dollars in the reception center, jin food stamps, I was no shortage of them, Jin Yuede even my time with the students led by double- copies, each in one place, as much as possible so that students

over Yijun, cross-Huangling straight Da Luochuan, extremely cold northern climate, we catch up in the morning journey, the students swap eyebrows froze on the ice from the white, we have been wearing sweaters Maoku can not resist biting cold. To help the Red Guards through the winter, reception center comrades were carefully prepared. We just need to make a promissory note in the reception center, from progressive to the window, the window will come out the other side sets of cotton, cotton trousers, we take a look together, including three sets of red and green, and we are still inside and from the window , side window and out of three black color. We learn to look like the farmers in northern Shaanxi, find a rope tied to a large block pants, wore a lot of really warm, but walking is very convenient, if you want to run, you have to worry about pants will fall off .

along the path taken by the Red Army, twenty-five days after a difficult journey, the trip up to eight hundred kilometers, we finally walked into the revolutionary sites - Yan'an. Extension of the riverside pagoda mountain, leaving our footprints, visit Zaoyuan, Yang Jialing Mao, Premier Zhou Enlai's former residence of the older generation of revolutionaries, I shed tears of excitement, the pavilion that looked at the Chairman Mao white horses, think of a desperate battle to defend Yenan, my heart a long time can not be calm.

revolutionary sites - Yan'an let us accept an interesting history of the revolutionary tradition.

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Yanan, the Red Guards reception center, the big day, a small basket large pan of cooked rice and nobody cares, we just drink a bowl of millet porridge every day left . Those of us who grew up the child from the rice snacks, and only went to the state-run cafeteria on the streets, eat a bowl of noodles (without rice supply). Back to Hanzhong, we really do not want to walk again, but the reception center is not to get our return the car,UGG shoes, there is no agreement by our repeated representations, we have no choice but to spend money only bought his ticket, and boarded the back of trucks bound for Tongchuan home (no bus), in this Dishuichengbing cold winter, running for nearly nine hours to reach the destination, our bodies were frozen, almost unable to move the body numb, my feet could not step the pace until the second Genius pressure of cross God, we continued on our way back to the school.

days he was pleased to tell me: Tom finished bright light in the hands of the commander that the struggle. He barabara eyes, said: wanted, the evening is for you to face, you do not toast Monastic that! this gun is to give or not give?

Tang also proposed and then commander of armed forces in various communes get guns. As I said, good Mandarin, assign specific tasks, responsible for questioning the place of firearms trial. We rest of the night he went to great length trench commune, the students arrested in armed cadres, tied up in the cement pole, the cold I think he was trembling, I quickly brought out from his office wearing his coat, as this bit strong armed cadres, and always have the to forget he is still into the river. He decided to relax, and our first Qiangqiang action failed.

the second failure of the students summed up the lessons of the last, after a careful and detailed reconnaissance, Commander Tom always believed that even a militia Daping rifles, submachine guns, machine guns and other weapons, even as the militia has been a county, region advanced militias, weapons and equipment complete. But the militia even be able to do: call at any instant,UGGs, to the energy war. Once the plan if inadvertently, there is the danger of Jifeidanda to participate in the operation, a total of fifty people, equipped with eight rifles, three cars arranged to meet the operation, all the preparations carried out during the day and predict the weather, but also of the vehicle in a careful and detailed examination, at temporary departure, the task was explained to me, the main work is responsible for guarding the car, ready to collusion, including the care of wounded personnel.

our three vehicles parked in the cove road in the village, middle of the night they are out of the car, Mo Zhehei road forward, ten minutes later, the distant sound of farmers in just a few kilometers, with the village households Along the Sound between Jizao the call, I saw the clock, they have gone more than an hour, I silently prayed for them, bless the safe return earlier, more than two hours later, the East has been slightly white, I am heart beat faster and faster.

then someone ran up carrying a gun, he put the gun down Yishang Ju said to me: Before and after less than five minutes, the students have all come back to see them one by one on the bus, his face revealing a winning smile, I feel relieved.

will not start, Tom Commander anxiously: come closer, they chase barefoot and shout edge

Car or a motionless, quiet, lying in a ditch Au, I feel a Ruzhui abyss, black eyes from his eyes closed, waiting for the arrival of the fate of death.

cars rumbling suddenly lit up, the engine roaring with smoke thick smoke, the car is like a shot arrow, whistling away.